Still truckin'

It seems to have been a pretty uneventful week since I wrote last. No "symptom use" (binging, restricting, etc) for a week...pretty good, I guess. My session this week with Doug went well, we discussed a lot of the things I was going through last week, super sad and the stuff with my dietitian. He thinks that either course of treatment is a good way to go. Either continuing with what I'm doing or the intensive outpatient program. Both are equally effective. We both agree that the course I'm on now is good, especially since I'm still so new to treatment. He also said that in this stage of my treatment it is normal to still be understanding the disorder and it's hold on me. He continues to assure me that I am making progress.

This weekend has been pretty busy so far. I spent the majority of it cleaning and rearranging my upstairs. The living room now accomodates a dining area. It looks pretty good. I need an actual place to eat my meals at home, somewhere I can eat mindfully without distraction of the television. It was too hot upstairs last night to eat/make dinner so unfortunately I didn't get to christen the updated room. it looks really nice though, I'm looking forward to having a meal there.

So now this leaves a semi-empty bedroom (dining room table moved from the bedroom/office), save for the cat boxes. I am not sure yet what I want to do with that room but I am toying around with a meditation sort of space. Someplace I can go to just sit quietly and practice staying in the moment. It's so so so easy to get caught in my head reliving the past and making assumptions about the future, neither of which are healthy behaviors. I need to learn how to enjoy and pay attention here and now. This will help me manage my life by using my newly acquired coping skills. It's easier to use these skills when I am able to take a step outside of myself, in the moment, and observe what it going on reasonably, rather than reacting emotionally and possibly making rash, unhealthy decisions.

I guess that's about it for now. I'm at the coffee shop, Monday afternoon killing time until I get my hair cut and colored...I'm so excited! Tomorrow I'm off with my sisters to Duluth to rock with Wilco. Yeah!

Take care all!