A New Pathway

It's been quite a while since I last wrote. Duh, right? Due to the length of time between blogs, it probably shouldn't take a rocket scientist to deduce life for me hasn't been nearly as rosey as it had been the last time I wrote.

Perhaps you'll notice that I've changed some items in my side bar here to the right. No longer will you see a tally of weight loss and there are now some different links to websites. The next part here is fairly difficult for me to share as the reality of this is still pretty fresh. I am currently being treated for an eating disorder called Binge Eating Disorder (or BED). Simply put, BED is very similar to Bulimia however there is generally no purging. Info about the disorder (click here).

Things for me started heading downhill (again) shortly after the first of the year. I had significant weight loss and success on Weight Watchers. Over the holidays I was fairly rigid about meeting particular weight goals and staying "on plan". After the holidays were over the disorder took over again. The restriction of dieting - limiting food or avoiding certain foods contributes to the vicious circle of the diet - binge cycle. The restrictive diet gives way to a ferocious binge. Of course this behavior makes a person feel oh-so-good about themselves which then sets you up for even more binging for emotional release. Forgive me if I'm not explaining this very well. The above referenced Wikipedia page does a better job.

I started treatment two months ago in a wonderful clinic that exists solely for those with eating disorders. Alas, I have found my place! Over the years I have tried different therapists and approaches to what could have been wrong - treatment for depression, anxiety, a failed attempt last year actually addressing my issues with food. I know now I am on the right path. I see my therapist once per week for an "hour", along with seeing a dietitian a half hour per week. Next week, in addition to those sessions I begin a group session. I'll elaborate more on that later but I can tell you I'm looking forward to it.

I am not sure to what extent I will be sharing about my experiences and recovery. There is plenty I'm anxious to share but there are other issues being treated as well that are intertwined with this disorder and those are a bit too personal to share right now.

Too those of you who are currently aware of my new journey, your support has been amazing and I am immensely grateful to have you beautiful, wonderful people in my life. Thank you so much!