I'm back from therapy session number two. I'm feeling pretty good today, Karen (my therapist) even said it was nice to see me smiling. I swear that "hour" goes so fast. I was looking forward to my session today. I was anxious to talk to her about the book and to see if I'm on the right track. It seems I am doing alright. I want to follow the principles of the book and also follow weight watchers. I am trying to find a balance between the two and Karen seems to think that is alright as long as my behavior isn't compulsive. I will be aware of that and keep an eye on myself so that I don't get crazy about the weight loss.
So in reading this new book I am really trying to keep track of when my body is physically hungry and feeding it when it tells me too. Along with that and probably most importantly I am trying to figure out exactly what it is I need when I feel propelled toward food when my body isn't hungry. I've been working on this for a week or so and I'm getting better at stopping and asking myself, are you really hungry? if you're not then what's going on? And then from there figure out some way to deal with what's going on. If I'm bored, find something to do, if I'm angry get some exercise or journal, if I'm sad, sit and be sad. I have been told that it is alright to feel these things that my immediate reaction doesn't have to be to make the feeling go away by whatever means possible. Like, it's alright to feel hungry. Ya know, I think this sounds strange but I never really thought that before. If I ever actually physically felt hungry, I thought feed me NOW! The book recommends that you wait to eat when you feel that first hunger "pain" until the next one comes along in order to really feel what your body is telling you, that it truly is alright to feel that way. Of course, waiting too long isn't good either but that has never been a problem for me.
Right now I want to eat but my belly is not hungry. I noticed this feeling as I was leaving Karen's office. I'm not sure exactly what that feeling is. I'm guessing it was because I felt relieved that I was done - like I should reward my good session with food. She said that often when I'm trying to find out what I'm feeling it won't be just one particular emotion, that it could be a "potpouris" of emotions. Sometimes she said it helps to step outside yourself and ask, "How would someone else in this situation feel?".
So my next appointment is in a month. It was either that or next week so I went with a month since things seem to be going alright currently.
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Congratulations, Jessie, onmaking progress with your feelings when you think of food, is it hunger or what else? I imagine that is one of the hardest parts.
spending a day with two people who love and support your efforts was also a positive way to use some unplanned time. Weightloss is so encouraging, I imagine. Love GN
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