a little more knowledge

In speaking with my sister yesterday about my reservations about OA, she informed me that the 12-step programs don't have to be religious. What I read on the websites talks about "giving your addiction up to God". Apparently "God" can be any higher power I choose. So I would take that to mean it's a way of letting go of that which has a hold on me. That seems to be a little easier to swallow, I guess I wished they'd make that a little more clear in the literature online that I've read.

There is an OA meeting at the church two blocks from my house on Sunday evenings. I think I will go to one and check it out. If it seems like something that I would be comfortable with, I'll go to another one and so forth. Right now though I feel like I'm doing alright being accountable to weight watchers and you all. I'm ordering the book today that my therapist recommended. That book (and she's got a ton of others) looks like it will help me realize when I'm truly hungry - when my body tells me I'm physically hungry not when my mind tells me to eat for whatever reason (stress, loneliness, fatigue, anger).

I'm feeling pretty good this morning. One of the forms I filled out yesterday was a depression assesment. According to the form's score I'm mildly depressed which to me seems pretty acceptable since I've got a lot going on right now. I guess it validates a bit too why even though I'm dealing with all this stuff I'm still remaining pretty positive about it all. I mean, it's a positive thing I'm doing so it only makes sense. Besides, IT'S SPRING!!!! The tulips are blooming, the grass is getting greener and the plants outside around the house are sprouting. It's time for growth, I'm right on track!