controlled chaos

Alright, I think I've slowed down now for a little bit. Last week was tough. I have been ridiculously busy for the last couple weeks. My anxiety has been crazy and I just have felt so out of control. My eating was a mess because I was so stressed out and overly busy. I was feeling so overwhelmed with life and it's obligations and responsibilities. I'm still feeling a little out of control but my eating is in check this week. Exercise has suffered because I've felt like I'm running out of time to get everything I want to get done so I skipped most of my exercise last week. I skipped tonight too. I have been getting to work between 6 and 6:30am so by the time I'm heading home at night I'm pretty wasted and all I want to do is have some down time. I know exercise is a good outlet but right now it feels like one more item on a list I have to do and that list lately seems so never-ending.

There is less going on now and work is mellowing out a little bit. I guess it's the "when it rains it pours" adage. Tomorrow is my therapy appointment. I really don't feel like going - another item on the list. But I guess that's when I need to go the most. Hopefully I will be able to update this more often now that things have slowed down a little bit. Boy do I miss days of boredom, the I-can't-think-of-a-thing-to-do-today days. I can't recall the last time that happened and I'm beginning to think that it won't happen again until retirement.